for the win.

i'm feeling way better about going to mcc next semester. i talked to tj for a while last night about it. he said he came prepared to tell me all the reasons why i should stay at nau, but after hearing what i had to say said there was really no reason for me to come back. photographers are hired based off of their portfolios, and i'm not going to gain anything from staying at nau. i (and by i, i mean my parents) will lose sooo much more money if i stay here. and the only real reasons i would want to would be for marching band and kkpsi...

i'll probably do asu's marching band next semester. i have the time for it, and i don't want to take a season off. i think it'll help me become a better player and help me deal with people i don't like very much (there are a few people on the cymbal line i don't like). i think it will also give me the opportunity to teach, because no one really pays attention to nau's band. but... anyways.

i'm still nervous, but i think this is the right thing for me. i'm scared that i won't be ready. like, i'm going to finish school in three semesters, which is a year and a half from now. i don't know if i'm ready for that. and what if photography doesn't make me enough money? what's my plan b? plan c? i don't have one right now. besides focusing on drumline for the next few years, which i really want to do. i have four more years to do winter drumline. and because i'm not marching this summer, i have two more years of corps. i eventually want to end up on a world class line, so i need to get better.

but i really don't know what my plan b is. i think every semester i will take one class that doesn't have anything to do with photography to see if i'm interested in any of it. next semester i'm taking silk screening, which is AWESOME. i love making shirts (usually i just draw on them with sharpie...), so this should be interesting. it's only one credit, and it's only a month long. it's at nine in the morning... but i'm taking it with alex and dan, so it shouldn't be too bad! i seriously don't know if i would be able to do this though if dan, alex, and trey weren't doing it with me. it was completely coincidence (kind of...) that we all decided to go there, because alex was the only one that currently goes there. dan said it's HUGE and so confusing, but old and really artsy, which i'm looking forward to :) i'm trying to find a job that's near it so that i can work easily. right now i'm looking at vans, gap, old navy and forever 21. i hope one of them works out. i'm seriously going to apply everywhere. and i've seriously never applied to anywhere. haha. i got my last job without an interview. i don't think it will be that easy though...

ever since it became real that i'm going to mcc next year (after my mom told me i was), i've been slacking even more in my classes, but it's weird because i feel like i'm trying harder... but i skipped spanish TWICE this week. i only went yesterday and we have a quiz tomorrow... we'll have to see how i do on it. i also have an exam tomorrow in animal behavior. i actually studied some for it last night and the night before, but i didn't study nearly enough. and i should be studying right now, but halonna asked if i wanted to get food and i said yes. we ended up coming down to south campus because she had to go to an african drumming thing. she said it wouldn't be for very long, but it's been about an hour and a half and i'm still waiting. i should have left... but i didn't want to go back and study. i guess i have my notes and the study guide on my computer... i totally just thought of that. haha.

STUDY TIME FOR THE WIN.