"if i lay here, if i just lay here. would you lie with me, and just forget the world."

technically, i'm moving home today. i still have so much to do, it's kind of crazy. i hate packing. i hate cleaning. i haaaate it.

today was my last day at burger king. would you believe that i'm actually kind of sad my time there is done? i actually really loved the people there. it wasn't the ideal job, but it kept me fed (most of the time) and kept me here in flagstaff. and it wasn't bad. i'm going to miss some of the people who worked there so much. working there was the first time i made friends outside of band. and it was kind of nice having some new friends.

i'm trying so hard to stay positive. i still doesn't seem real.

i've been listening to chasing cars by snow patrol over and over and over lately. i just learned it on piano and i'm not sure why i never really listened to it before this. but, i really wish i could just... forget the world right now. i wish i could just forget everything bad that's going on. everything that i don't want to do in order to do the things i do want to do. i would really like to just lay there and forget the world. preferably in one of the meadows in flagstaff. preferably with no bugs too. haha.

but yeah. erjnhlhltnh is pretty much how i feel now.