"so, this is my life. and i want you to know that i am both happy and sad and i'm still trying to figure out how that could be."

i think the reason i haven't been writing blogs as regularly, is because i started writing in a journal. it was weird for a while here on my blog because i was just writing about everything happening in my life and i personally thought it was annoying because i was trying to do that, while also not writing too much because i know that someone's personal journal isn't always fun to read. and i also could never write everything i wanted to write in fear of someone getting hurt or whatever.

so, yeah. i've been trying to justify to myself why i haven't been running home to write a blog on something i've been thinking about all day.

i've been so super busy though lately, so whenever i get free time i tend to just want to lay around and do nothing.

school is going halfway well... i'm super behind in psychology and cis 120. i'm very much on the right track in art and photography though. i've been thinking about classes for next semester. digital photography II is the only for sure class that i already signed up for. i would really like to take documentary photography, there's a problem with the school not offering the prerequisite... weird, i know. then i was also thinking about drawing and art history.

i've also been thinking about taking some noncredit classes. they have some that are only for a few weeks or even just for a day. the one's i was thinking about are a digital photography class, a beginners photoshop class, and a jewelry making class. haha. i'm still trying to figure out how much they cost (if anything). because if they're free, that would be freaking AWESOME.

haha, i just went to look at the classes and found a noncredit intro to documentary filmmaking. I SIGNED UP HELL YEAH.

on another note. my rush process is going really well. i have 11 interviews done (12 after today). i don't have any scheduled for this weekend, but... we have a game and then i have to work :( BUT, i have gone to the two required gk meetings and the one service project that was required. i've finished about 1/4 of my interviews and have done all of my homework. it's the only class that i "strive for the highest in" (... :D) and actually try to be an overachiever. haha. last night we had class and i finished my quiz way before everyone else and did all of the extra credit and more. dillon finished like, five minutes after me and still finished way before everyone else. needless to say, nolan was feeling great. haha. t.j. didn't go because he had to work, and when he got off work and texted me, i didn't have my phone, so he went home. i'm sad about him not being a part of my process, but i'm trying to make the best of everything.

i've also been working almost 30 hours a week. it only sucks because i eat too much burger king now, and i'm afraid i'm going to get fat.

and on the fat note, i've been thinking a lot about drum corps! i really think i want to do it this year, either on cymbals or something else... hahaha. i'm going to start looking into it soon and looking to see when auditions are/if someone (nolan or t.j. or austin) will teach me either baritone or mellophone. i'm feeling only slightly bad about not doing winter drumline. i'll probably feel worse once the season starts though. hopefully it will all be worth it...

i think that's all for now. just updating on life i guess.

"so, this is my life. and i want you to know that i am both happy and sad and i'm still trying to figure out how that could be."
the perks of being a wallflower.

this quote is so incredibly me right now.