motivation.

i'm surprised at how much motivation i am lacking in school. up until about last week i had all the motivation in the world (for art and photography at least). i have an essay due tomorrow in psychology and i haven't started it at all and i'm really contemplating whether or not i'll even do it. on wednesday we have a midterm and none of it is multiple choice.

needless to say, i'm having a rough time. psychology of women and cis 120 will be the death of me. all i want to do next semester is take band at nau and then digital and documentary photography next semester. i'll have to pay for my own health insurance, so i've been looking around online for student plans. if i only take two classes and band, i'll have more time to work and more time to take off of work. haha. i can focus a lot on trying to grow as a photographer.

yesss. that is my plan.

oh, and new plan as of last night: nolan is going to teach me baritone and i might try out for academy :) haha, jeffrey told me i should do it and i really don't think i'll be able to make cymbals. apparently baritone will probably be the easiest for me to pick up quick. and nolan happens to play baritone and played baritone for academy this past summer... yeah. so there. haha. new plans! and something else to focus on besides drumline.

i know i'm really going to miss drumline, but i think it'll be good for me to focus on other things. drumline is so limiting because you can't really do much else. so we'll see how the rest of this school year goes.

as for kkpsi, i was worried in the beginning, before first degree, that i was making the wrong decision by rushing again. but i'm really glad to say that i'm completely in love with my life right now (minus psy 236 and cis 120... haha. and i guess work too). i've been getting to bond more with nolan as a big, which i know will never be the same as what tj and i have, but i'm excited to see where the relationship takes us. whenever i'm with any group of kkpsi people i can't help but feel so incredibly welcomed and loved. i already have two interviews done and six scheduled for this week. i've been feeling less stressed out because of the whole interview aspect, but i have only interviewed people i know pretty well so far...

last night i went to the kkpsi meeting. i got my binder for this semester too! and i'm really happy with the time of our class because that means i'll at least get one night a week off now and i won't have to close five days in a row.





i put these on the side of my blog, but never officially posted them. the first picture is tj and me after first degree at peter piper. i was reeal sad the entire time we were there, but only because of the whole situation with tj... the second picture is... i don't even know. haha it looks to me like my grandbig and all of her littles and grandlittles, and then tj. he's just in the picture for no reason i think... then the last is at the makeup degree with my big sister, new big brother nolan, and my twin dillon. we're twins because we have exactly the same bigs.

anyways, yeaahhh. marching band time!